Ugggggggggh. Sometimes I feel like the world's biggest hypocrite.
I am letting people dictate my emotions, and why? I do not know. People are jerks, be open and honest with one another. Pleeeeeease. Especially when emotions are involved. I try to always be honest with how I feel, think, act but sometimes, I find I am not being honest. Especially with myself.
I want to punch a subwoofer and release the rage!* Or watch Sleepless in Seattle and allow myself to express emotion by tears. Arrrrrrrrrrrgh. I really should just paint, that would be both constructive and healthy.
If you are going to be in my life- be honest and forward, dammit! I would much rather someone tell me straight to my face that they aren't interested rather than toy with emotions or ignore me. Emotions are not playthings.
*I once punched (or maybe I kicked it- I can't remember) a subwoofer.
It. Was. Incredible.
I felt actual relief after doing so.
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